Monday, December 07, 2015

On Uncertainty

Saya kira tak ramai dah yang baca blog ni. Sekali sekala datang pun sebab ada search, dan enjin carian bawa ke sini.

Jadi, saya tulis sajalah di sini. Sebab bila tulis dalam buku, rasa pelik je tulisan sendiri.

I am pregnant. After first attempt of IUI at KL Fertility. I am only 7th weeks pregnant. But, last Friday, i received a news about my pregnancy. I might have what they call blighted ovum. Phewwww.

Husband marah cerita2 kat kawan-kawan. Mak cakap doktor salah kira. Kawan-kawan hanya mampu doa sama-sama. Many of them pernah alami keguguran. But, no one ever mention about this "no fetal growth". Everyone just remind me to take care, jangan lasak-lasak. But, no one is actually warn me about this.

Nothing i can do. If you Googled about it, itulah yang mereka tulis. It is not anyone fault, nothing you can do.

I know, it is not confirm yet. But, i can feel that the hormone level is decreasing. The chances is 50-50. Some of them, after tunggu one week, memang ada growth and fetal heartbeat. But, ada yang memang miscarriage after that.

This one week adalah antara minggu yang paling menggusarkan dalam hidup saya. Susah untuk not to think about it, walaupun dah diingatkan oleh ramai orang "jangan difikirkan sangat".

I hope i can write a good news here, next week. 

With Love,
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2 comments:

HW said...

Semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan oleh Allah. Doa banyak-banyak, insyaAllah Allah tahu yang terbaik :D

-Kak Wahida-

KBH said...

rabbi yassir wala tuassir ya kareem

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